Thursday, June 27, 2013

Confessions of a stay at home mom

Ok, this is gonna put me in a bad light to some of you, but I don't mind admitting I'm weak. Mostly because I am.

Being a stay at home mom (I believe SAHM is the term hip blogger sahms use) was the only thing I ever really wanted. Sure, I wanted an education and I wanted to travel and work BUT I had decided from a young age that I would take those things as they came until I found the man of my dreams and we could settle down and start a family. Luckily, I've had the opportunity to experience both lifestyles. I could go into the crazy adventures I had before I met Rob and settled down, but that's a post for another time. Instead I'm going to tell you how hard it was to transition from that lifestyle to this one...

It was hard. Like calculus hard. And if calculus wasn't hard for you then think 'art theory' hard. And if neither of those were hard for you then you should definitely try your hand at being a sahm.  I don't want to give you the wrong idea---I love being a mommy---but it took me a while to love everything that comes with it. And I still don't love everything about it (read: poopy diapers) but some of the things that I was loathe to do at first have become the best part of my day.

The biggest and probably saddest reflection on me as a person would be how I felt the first couple of months when Gideon would wake up from a nap. His naps were never long enough. I never had enough me time. His crying made my body hurt. He was notorious for leaving large presents in his diaper after naps. The list goes on and on. But then something magical happened. Gideon started smiling. And laughing. And rolling over! Suddenly this thing that was leeching all my energy had started to give me energy. I no longer dreaded his awake time. I even started to enjoy it! There are days now when I can't wait until he wakes up from his nap so that I can read to him or tickle him or show him a toy that I think he will like.

There were lots of other hard transitional moments (or months) for me and although I'd love to complain about expound upon them right now, I'd much rather show you some cute pics of Gideon from the Pet Fair we went to this weekend.

"what kind of dog are you?"

The fam minus papa

Perfect fit!

"excuse me, can you tell me where you get groomed? I just love your bangs!"


  1. I completely relate to your post. I always wanted to be a mom but I found the transition to be a lot harder than I thought it would be. I am so glad now for my little busy body but the "newborn" stage wasn't all snuggles and loving on my baby like it seemed to be for everyone else. You are wonderful mom, though, and it shows in your beautiful son.

  2. As a future mom (at least, I hope so), I just want to say thanks for being honest! I think it's only natural that this is a huge adjustment. You being frank about me helps me know I can be too, when the time comes. Basically, I think you're awesome, and no phase of life is 100% awesome all the time (or even most of the time, given how hard big changes can be), but YOU are 100% awesome all the time.